PSYCHE!

One of the first things the surgeon will do in a mastectomy is to take out a couple of lymph nodes from your armpit. These are sent immediately to the lab and analyzed so that if there is cancer present, the surgeon can go back in and take out the rest of the nodes. During…

This Rolling Pin is My Bitch

The little things seem to be the hardest in terms of pain. Granted, I’m not attempting to move furniture or anything so it’s not like the bar is set very high. But now that my entire upper half has been hacked into and put back together, I am very aware of how often we use…

Yeah, nope.

Here is what I am capable of doing this morning; watching a TV show called Dogs 101, and drinking tea. I slept well in my lounger and only got up to use the loo once and to take my pills. Waking up today, though, was no bueno. It’s like just when I think I am…

Blame It On The Drains

I was right. Waking up feeling like a million bucks, then taking a highly medicated nap and waking up an invalid was pretty brutal. Here is what I remember: Being wheeled into the OR filled with good-looking people and lots of lights. Waking up in recovery to an awesome nurse named EJ who I spent…

Yes, I brought a stuffed bunny

I’m baaaacckkkk! Can’t write much ’cause I’m on lot of drugs and this iPhone screen seems to be moving around and splitting into two every few seconds. Well, it happened. I had a bilateral mastectomy. My surgical team was straight out of Grey’s Anatomy. McHunky the anesthesiologist, McGorgeous the breast surgeon and McSuave for plastics….

We’ve Got Her Back

(It’s Jennie again.) Grace says ‘hi.’ Everyone told her that Day 2 would be pretty much the worst. Guess what? It is. But we know that it’s normal for this situation. She is still in & out of woozy, druggy sleep. She did have a quiet night, though. Hopefully a healing one. Many doctors checked…

Post-Surgery Update

Hi, it’s Grace’s sister Jennie. A very brief update about how Grace is doing. She is in her room resting and gradually coming off the major pain meds/sleep drugs. Her surgeons reported that the mastectomy and reconstruction both went very well. It was a long operation. All good news from the surgery team. Grace is…

See you on the flipside

  I’m here. I’m hungry. I’m ready. I’m scared. But mostly hungry. I slept alright with the exception of tooth pain that left my sister and I contemplating whether or not we could crush a Tylenol for me to snort since I can’t have water. Ended up swallowing that bitch with saliva somewhere around 4am…

Cancer Ruins Plans

The breast surgeon said, ‘if you feel up to it.’ Therapist #1 said, ‘you might want to consider staying home.’ Plastic surgeon said, ‘I don’t care, I make boobs.’ Therapist #2, who specializes in cancer patients, said ‘absolutely do NOT go.’ And the dentist said, ‘I basically need to drill your face off every day…

Happy Sequin Circle, Sad Dull Square

A few days ago I had a marathon of doctor appointments all in one day. We opened with a pre-op physical which included a blood draw and an aggressive nasal swabbing, followed by my first visit to the oncologist and the grand finale was one last visit with my breast surgeon. Are you already jealous?…

Birthday + Cancer = Extra Presents

May 4, 2016 Hey gang, It’s my 36th birthday and unfortunately, blowing out candles appears to NOT have the power to grant actual wishes (still have cancer). What is great however, is the love and affection being shown to me today. As a mother and a doula I sort of think birthdays should belong to…

Dante

Do you know who truly gives me my strength? This guy–Dante Alighieri Lombardo.