Twilight Sparkle

When I was a little girl I was obsessed with My Little Ponies. These were not the MLPs of today, who are slender, beautiful and sassy. My ponies were chubby, cute and lovable. I am sort of embarrassed to admit this, but at the height of my ponydom, I had 73 of these little plastic, equine toys….

Pop Pop Fizz

Chapter 1: Pop I slept last night! It wasn’t the sleep of my dreams (see what I did there?), but all things considered, it was pretty good. I woke up feeling not only human, but sort of normal. I languished in bed for a while listening to my kids’ cheery voices playing some sort of…

Top Ten

Tonight’s Top Ten Category is: Top 10 Exciting Chemo Side Effects So Far Number 10: Bone Pain- Most likely from the Neulasta shot meant to bolster white blood cell production. Adult growing pains never felt so horrible! Number 9: Itchy Scalp- Instead of enjoying your hair for the last few days you have it, why not…

White Flag

You guys. This cancer stuff–I fear I am hovering just above the edge of something and I don’t like it. I don’t know what it is, where it is going to take me, but it feels ominous. Surgery seems easy, in hindsight. Healing wounds and binding musculature back together is so straightforward. You feel the…

Chem-Oh No You Didn’t

First of all, I have been waiting to use this blog post title for over 2 months. Feeling super-awesome to know the time has come. Here is how Chemo Day #1 went down. My husband, sister, mother and I headed to the Kellogg Cancer Center where we met my friend and photographer Katie Gierke of…

Bone Scans ‘n Harmony

Today’s cancer party game was a bone scan (‘n harmony). My oncologist was reluctant to even order the scan, but I have been having persistent upper back pain and, since none of this cancer stuff makes sense, anything out of the ordinary is worth checking. Bone Scan Plan: Show up to get a shot of…

Illuminati

Today I decided it was time to rip off the bandage both literally and figuratively and take a good look at my new plug-in accessory. As you can see in the headline photo of this post, it mostly just looks like gross bruises, swelling and redness. In paging through the pamphlet for my new Power…

Port in, Drain Out

Grace’s chemo port insertion surgery went well with the exception of a pesky eyelash extension complication. And Dr. Winchester took her drain out!!!!  

One Day

I have always been a forward thinker. My brain processes a plan then immediately calibrates how it will affect our life in 6 days, 6 months, 6 years. I would not classify this as one of my better traits. That ‘living in the moment’ honky was never something I could get on board with. But…

Making The Cut

The votes were in and we were locked on a platinum blonde mohawk. Everything that seemed thrilling and exciting about choosing looks and watching all of my family and friends vote for my pre-chemo ‘do,’ suddenly made me feel nauseated. Why wasn’t this fun anymore? What had worn off? Oh right. I have cancer. I…

Mrs. Mia Wallace

*WARNING* THIS POST CONTAINS GRAPHIC CONTENT Uma Thurman, Pulp Fiction, 1994. We all remember the moment she was stabbed in the chest with the giant epinephrine needle, right? I certainly do. For whatever reason that image has been burned into my brain. Perhaps it is because I was probably a little too young to see…