Cancer Influencer

Wow, I haven’t written since July! That feels wacky and wrong, and right and ugh, I don’t know. Let’s start with some updates on what life has been like over the last few months. I’ll also intersperse some photos from cancery things I’ve been doing recently. GRACE Documentary has taken on a life of its…

North Korea, South China Sea, Breast Cancer

What would you think, if you recently had chemotherapy as a breast cancer treatment and you woke up to these headlines? Allow me to tell you what I thought. FUUUUCCCKKKKKK. I mean, yeah science!, but also, (mad face). Upon reading the many articles and trying to digest the evidence-based conclusions, I felt some unexpected reactions….

Scare

I saw my oncologist last week for a check-up. These visits are pretty uneventful these days which is the way you want your oncology appointments. They draw my blood from my one available arm, take my blood pressure, temperature and weigh me. Next I am told to change into a gown and I park it…

Pink Is the Loneliest Color

Technically, this is my second Breast Cancer Awareness Month as a breast cancer survivor. Last year I was still sick, bald and awaiting reconstruction so it didn’t feel like much of anything. I wasn’t able to pull the focus away from the micro of my situation to see the macro that is PINKTOBER. Guys, wow….

When Stress Turns into Palpable Fear 

*Cover Artwork by Bowen Kline* Today was an eventful day. I went with 5 kids and 3 adults to multiple tourist sites around Chicago. It really was fun, but also stressful. At any given moment, someone was either peeing in their pants or crying. I may or may not have done both, but I’ll never…

The DL on the DL

Mom, please stop reading right now. My father-in-law, I’m serious, this is not for your eyes. Anyone at all who doesn’t want to hear details about the goings on in my still functioning (barely) lady bits, this where where you exit the blog, stage left. BYE!!!! Here goes- A couple of technical things you should…

An Open Letter to Cancer

Dear Cancer, Four years ago today, you took my father from me. 8 months before that, he was just my dad, a seemingly very healthy 64 year old college professor. In the blink of an eye, he was living with Stage IV metastatic esophageal cancer. Within weeks of his diagnosis he was no longer able…

36, Again

My birthday is this week. My 36th birthday last year was somber. I was 2 weeks out from diagnosis and 2 weeks away from my bi-lateral mastectomy. Though I was in somewhat of an ‘ignorance is bliss’ phase, it was still a sobering birthday. We all know how my 36th year went down. It was…

Hocus Pocus Diagnosis

The Magic Trick Set up: Seemingly healthy 35 year old woman Slight of hand: Random bi-lateral lactation leading to mammogram and biopsy Show of cards: Cancer One year ago today I was diagnosed with Invasive Ductal Carcinoma of the breast. I didn’t see it coming. I had had a biopsy, as a mammogram had shown…

Is it…?

They say that if your cancer is going to recur or metastasize it is most likely to happen in the 12 months after you finish initial treatment. So I finished chemo on September 13, 2016. I am going to go with that date as the day my 1 year stopwatch started ticking. The first few…

Statistics Schmatistics

Statistics are stupid. Seriously, what do statistics even mean if you are the unlucky sucker in the minority? Example: When I had my mammogram at 35 years old last year, here is what the radiologist said: “I see something, but it is probably nothing. I am going to say that there is an 80% chance…

Follicular Folly

Okay, I realize that a haircut was probably slightly premature, but I am desperate to do anything that feels non-cancery. My hair was starting to grow over my ears and the nape of my neck was looking sloppy. This was all I needed to warrant a visit to the salon. The haircut itself took approximately…